Reanimator

"Sleep and fade away (tonight)
Inside these walls we wait (our lifeforce drains)
To change takes more than to remain
Therefore we lie, back, in the comfort of our chains"

To change IS more than to remain.
Funny how I couldnt figure that out before.
I wont let let it get to me any more, I wont show it anyways. Maybe now I can focus on more important things.
To remain means it wont be very fun for my friends to hang out/talk with me, and I dont want that. So, if anybody is reading this... I'm sorry, I'll just suck it up and keep going, it wont stop me any longer.

Insidious

"I feel all black inside like coal
I wonder if you know?
An evil thrives inside my soul
the darkest place I know
I rage at everyone I see
Nocturnal fiends and all that be
just keep away from me"

Everything sucks at the moment. I will not tell you why as it could result in me being killed, again. Im going away for a week with Mange & Viggo on sunday, hopefully this will help me clear my head.

(For a moment there I actually thought it worked. I didn't expect my curiosity to screw me over, now I'm back to normal again. I want to go back and forget everything. Being back home is not as great as I hoped it would be, in fact, it is the opposite.)